For the past month, I’ve been in a dilemma.
I haven’t heard from Dre since before Halloween.
Now, I know he’s been putting in overtime at his job.... He said he was trying to make some decent money before the holidays. And okay, I respect that. I really do. But y’all… this is getting out of hand.
Like, how you working that much and can’t even send a text? A “hey, I’m good,” or something? Nothing? Not even a missed call to show effort?
I’m sitting here like....am I trippin’?
I don’t chase no man. That’s not me. Never been me. It’s his job to reach out, not mine.
I’m not about to blow up his phone and look desperate. But at the same time, what if I’m just being stubborn? Because the silence is loud.
Part of me wants to call him just to hear his voice, just to make sure everything’s cool. But the other part of me is saying, “Nah, let him call you. If he wants to talk, he will.”
And then my mind starts spiraling.
Like… what if he’s not just working?
What if he’s out with somebody else, kicking it while I’m here losing sleep?
See, I know I'd be Ioverthinking.... Cuz right now I am replaying everything in my head... how he looked the last time I saw him, the way he said “I will call you on my free time”..
But dang Dre.... Like, you have to have enough free time for me at this point, Lawd!
I hate feeling like this.
Because deep down I know he’s probably just tired, focused, doing his thing. But I can’t lie… it’s bothering me.
Maybe I should give him grace. Maybe he really is just grinding right now.
But damn... a month? Not even a check-in?
How am I supposed to feel secure when I’m the only one wondering what’s going on?
Ugh.
This is me venting.
Because I’m not gonna call him. I refuse to be the one chasing.
But if he don’t reach out soon…
he might not have anything to come back to.
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